what was new 2000–1

28th December 2003
This should be the last entry in 2003. I have been promising to move onto the new server for months now and haven't done it - even though I've been paying for it. Also I have not been able to upload anything to the server that is hosting this present incarnation of the website, because the hosting company changed the f.t.p. Consequently all the additions and changes I've made to the site have not been put online. And I have made a LOT of changes to the site. It looks noticebly different, a bit wilder, a bit more personal: I have made it more how I want to see it (all those enlarged gifs, for instance), that's not normal on a regular site, but I like them!. Seeing as I write this section in yearly installments it seemed sensible as I was just adding more and more bits to the site to upload it and present it to you, the surfer, all at once. And the start of a new year seemed like the best time. So, the "NEW & IMPROVED" website starts from the beginning of 2004.

7th October 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEBSITE
3 YEARS OLD TODAY!!!
Still sorting things out with new-look website, so still haven't transfered to new server. However, I have been working trés hard on adding new pages, like a Weblog. This will be a portal where I can voice my thoughts and ideas and rantings and ravings. There will hopefully be photos and pics to view. I envisage it to be like a scrapbook of gathered thoughts and information I have picked up and think is interesting, and items gleaned from other websites. Much of the stuff I was writing here in "What's new", will now be in this new section.

2 September 2003
Erm..... I'm still here... I haven't gone away - honest. Don't start thinking I've given up doing the website, updating it, that I 've got bored of it, because I haven't made an entry for some time. I'm still alive and here and reasonably happy and I've had some great times lately with my friends. Not least "The Big Chill" and Carnival - both fantastic. I am feeling a lot better thanks - see earlier entry (although my back is giving me some grief at the mo - it's my posture whie working on the mac). It is always the way with me. I don't think I'm hypochondriac, but I'm often ill in some area of my body. It often is in disorder. Is this the same for everyone? I was always kidding ill as a kid, and nearly died when I was about 3 months old. "Water on the lung", my Granny said, it was only later on my Mum said it was emphyscema. My lungs have been delicate ever since. As a kid I had measles, German measles (twice), mumps, whooping cough and was just generally ill. I never had chicken pox (but no doubt I'll get shingles one day - like my Dad did recently). I am likely to get any cold going as well. I have been trying to sort this out. I have bought a smoothie maker and have been making fruit and vegetable concotions which I just slurp down. This, I find is a much better of ingesting vegetable matter than chewing and chomping certain fruit, like apples, which are a bit boring. But, in the machine, it's great. I have been adding stuff like spinach (raw, of course) into the mix. That is a foodstuff that had been totally off the menu before. Anyway, I'm eulogising about the merits of juicing and smoothie making.... ok.

Back to what I was talking about before - not working on the website. Well, actually, I HAVE been very very hard at it. I just haven't uploaded the changes yet. This is because I still haven't transfered the site onto the new server as yet. This is because (chicken & egg situation) I want the site to look different too - and I wanted to get rid of the spaces in the bad html in the earlier pages, which I haven't done yet, because it's a huge task (why didn't I write it correctly when I started the website? - I ask myself. I think the answer is that I was so eager to get it up and running that I forget or didn't realise), many of the jpegs have spaces in their names. I am wondering if OSX (which is unix) can see my faulty pages. Howvere, I have made changes to virtually all the main intro pages, which have become weirder, with new animations. The navigation is greatly improved with the use of template tables with the colour links scheme and who I actually am across the site. I still want to get the site to make money, but I wasn't making any (not a penny) through those affilliate adverts that were up and running. I have removed all of those apart from some that are on the main links page. This is better, because it means they don't interfere with how I want my webpages to look. They were an unwanted visual interruption to how I visualised the design of the webpage - I don't have adverts in my paintings (Oh my God - Eureka moment!), why should I have them on my webpages? Anyway, the point is that the paintings and pages themselves ARE the adverts. These are the things that I should be putting my efforts in trying to sell. So, I have started to think about the best methods of doing that. I AM BASICALLY USELESS AT BEING A BUSINESS PERSON - always have been! This is about to change, maybe. Gotta get serious. Anyway, I will upload the CRAZY revamped new site very soon, but without the ability for the surfer to have the ability to buy a painting or a print or a photograph online. This will come, but it will take time.

21st July 2003
Updated and redesigned the STATS page so that it is historically correct before I move to the new server.

Also added a new page which shows the website server stats in lot more detail. I can only go back to the beginning of 2003 though, so this page shows the data from January - June 2003.
20th July 2003
Long time away - got good excuses for not maintaining the site dilligently enough recently though.

Firstly, I have been unwell. Not something that I need to go into great detail, suffice to say it involves pain in my most intimate bits, which is most likely an infection (not an s.t.d., I might add), but may be something more serious. So, I am having an ultra-sound scan this week to see what the problem is. Happily, the pain has been receeding this last week so the anti-biotics may have worked (taking their time though), so it probably is not cancer. It's distressing though. Not what a bloke wants for his confidence, especially as I won't get the results for about 4 weeks. That's the free to all National Health system we have in the U.K. It is a brilliant concept and I don't mind paying tax to fund it, but it is under too much pressure from too many "customers" and has difficulty coping. I remember when I went to the hospital to make my appointment a month ago, I said , ironically, to the ultra-sound nurse there (who's name was Henry James - memorable - and who was originally from Africa) that I might be dead in four weeks time. He said catagorically that I would still be alive for the scan - which was reassuring and so far, correct.

However, little did Henry James know how right he might actually be, because, secondly, I escaped death when I was involved in a hit-&-run incident, when some drugged-up shitbastardcoward in a shitty old white Ford deliberately rammed into the back of me on my bicycle and sent me flying. Fortunately, I escaped with minor scrapes and bruises, but the wheel (my mavic rim) is totally trashed. I knew I hadn't broken anything and got up and kicked his front door as he started to drive off and dented it. His window was upon and he was looking forward with glazed eyes not looking at me but just looking intently at where he was escaping to, and I wish I had thumped him instead, but, on reflection, that may have been unwise because he could have had a gun - it was Dalston so it's a good possibility. If he was that insane to deliberately crash into my from behind simply because I was in his way he was someone who it wasn't advisably to cross swords with. I'm a peaceful man, so I damaged the vehicle instead of the driver. Anyway, it happened right outside the fire station in Dalston Lane and the fire-fighter came out of the station because they thought that they had heard the sound of two CARS crashing and they took me inside and gave me first aid. They were great guys and it was a pleasure and a privilage to spend two hours with them, waiting for the police who didn't turn up, so I took a black taxi back home.

Anyway, I went into a state of shock a couple of days after it happened and was profoundly and disturbingly depressed for quite a few days after that and had trouble relating to the world outside of my bedroom. I couldn't face work, I was incapable of relating to people when anyone of them could be a psychokiller!!!

I am back in a much better frame of mind now, and it was fascinating how it affected me.

I have created 10 more steps in a journey which has now reached number 200!

These are the last updates that I will do on this server. I will soon upload an improved version of the website with no html mistakes so if you have bookmarked a page on my site that had a space in it you will get a unavailable page. The new server is a lot faster so some of the animations should download a lot quicker

22nd June 2003
Feeling glum today - for no apparent reason. Work was very stressful yesterday, and it doesn't help that the boss is a total fuc@%* (careful - libel litigation, if I'm not careful!) - so that has probably got something to do with it. No thanks what so ever for working my balls off and doing unpaid overtime and selling lots of stuff and not receiving the commision that is rightfully mine. I have to get out of this dead-end job. No, I think it's more to do with hormones - men have them too, don't you know. Most days I'm optimistic and sparkly cheery, but some days I just feel like I have my own personal rain-cloud following me about. However, I know that even though I feel like doing some serious violence to something or someone today (I won't, don't worry - I'm a peaceful man), I know that sooner or later, I'll feel a lot better and be savouring every moment that life has to offer me.

Oh, by the way, I'm still being arty, which is why you are here in the first place. I have just finished the 21st painting in the "Cameo" series. They are getting more and more Liberace, or even "bling-bling" to use modern terminology. I am also continuing the related series of paintings which have the same methods and interpretations as the "Cameos", but which are not limited to the 12 x 12" (30 x 30 cms) format. These paintings I have decided to umbrella under the title series called "The Gay Paintings". This is gay as in the original sense of the word. I have a television at the studio and have it on when I'm working. I listen to it and peek when something sounds like it could look interesting. Anyway, there was a black and white western on the box recently, and the heroine talked about a house room decoration being "gay". I was looking at these paintings at that moment and thought "Exactly, that descibes these pictures exactly". When I get around to making some webpages for them, you will see what I mean.

8th June 2003
I haven't added anything recently, but I am working feverishly on the site so that when I put it up on the new server it will be easier to navigate and just generally be a fantastic experience. No doubt, it will be one of the best sites on the internet when it is up and running! Also, I am working through ideas for my new secret project that I hope to have on-line sometime soon.

20th May 2003
Well, I'm still here and as far as I know the website did not go off-line. I have now signed up for the all-singing and all dancing web hosting package with 500mb! of webspace (I only had 50mb before and I was using about 48mb of those, which meant that I was unable to add much more to the site as it was). This package means that I am able to host two sites side-by-side. It also has a firewall and weekly backups, which is reassuring, because I intend to become more business savvy and sell my work (and possibly other people's work - keep posted) over the net, and I need to be certain that there are no transaction mistakes. I am really excited about the possibities for the development of this internet project of mine. It needs better navigation in some places (although I find it logical, there are certain places that you the surfer can go too deep without escaping easily). Also, I need to promote myself more in the site - just a mention of my name and homepage url occassionally would be useful - most pages don't say who I am!. Every sensible business website says who they are and what they do and where they are on every single page. It means that may be some changes to certain bits - for example the subject intro pages (for example http://www.ahumanbeing.co.uk/Tunnels/Tunnels.html ) have nothing in them to say as to who the artist is!! Very unprofessional! I am not going to get rid of the weird stuff, because that is an essential part of the website - and who I am, but I will be making some of the art display pages more organised, so it will be easy to purchase work from. My intention is, as always though, that the website should be fun, exciting, stimulating and thought provoking. I want you to enjoy your digital journey through my life as an artist. ART vs BUSINESS. Hmm.

14th May 2003
There is a good chance the website will go off line for a couple of days very soon, because I am upgrading my web hosting package, which means uploading to a new server. It is time to get more space (I'm running out) and better back-up facilities. Also, I want to correct the bad html on some of the earlier webpages I wrote when I didn't know what I was really doing. It is time to move on and upwards. It's not cheap though. I have my site hosted by virtual internet, who have an excellent reputation, but quality and speed come at a price. If I am going to sell the work online, I need a quick connection. Also with more webspace, I can show larger versions of some of the paintings (or photos). However, time runs out on this present server on friday and I'm not sure if I can afford to pay up straight away for the new package, so the site maybe off-line for a short while. But, have no fear, I shall return if I do go away.

13
I have a thing about the number thirteen. I have a very annoying and unwanted relationship with it. It seems to be a number I am very aware of. Things and coincidences happen around the thirteenth day of the month, or I'll look at the time (when I haven't looked at a clock or watch for some time and it would invariably be showing the thirteenth minute past or to). Nothing really horrible or malevolent happens, but awkward things occur (like yesterday, when two rolls of slide film that I had taken photos of the new paintings came back from the processors completely black. They said I had underexposed the shots, but I had bracketed and taken three shots of each painting so that was a bummer, and than I bought a very expensive toasted cheese and tuna roll (£3.50!) and it was horrible and boring and I also bought some very nice spicy vegetable soup (£1.50 - good value) which I then proceeded to spill all over the studio floor by accidently kicking it. So I was a bit annoyed. However, I then went to see X2 at the cinema - and I thought it was great fun. I then went back to the studio and started a new small painting which I had painted the background a deep purple colour to, I added radiating lines of colored oil pastels and a large round puddle of pva with beads and buttons half submerged in it. See what it looks like when the pva dries from white to clear. I also did some more work on another small painting which I started last sunday. This is now finished, I think, and it is greatly improved. When, I first saw it earlier today, I was not impressed. Anyway, I got home safely and survived to the 14th day (I am writing this at 1am). I have learned to control my triskaidekaphobia a lot more in recently, but it still is a weird number that seems to have strange powers.

7th May 2003
-Happy returns for yesterday, Justin.
--Cheers Mate
-What is it now? 43?
--45.
-45!! Wow! Fly times. Ha!
--Don't worry, I'm still going to behave like a child, I still can't understand adult behavior.
-Yeah, but you need to get more real man. You need to get your work seen more.
--Don't hassle me man. I try hard. Got the website - it's going well, just under 1,000 pages accessed everyday (that's not bad, man), just need to start making some money from it next by selling prints and paintings.
-What about an exhibition?
--Got plans and schemes, but nothing definite at the mo'. Got the work (both figurative and abstract), being seen by a couple of galleries, but no response as yet.
-Well that sounds hopeful.
--Yeah, but I've promised myself to push harder on getting my work seen by other galleries (the right galleries) from now on. I'm 45 and supposed to be in the prime of my career with shows in many parts of the world like contemporaries of mine I know.
-Go for it!
--Yeah, I like the new work a lot too, it is still developing, which is the most important thing.
-Nice one.
--Thanks

Nothing much to report on the website, although I have done a couple of tweaks here and there which are inconsequential. I have also made a couple of new animated gifs A + B advertising the site ( I use them when I go guestbook travelling) which can also be seen at the bottom of "Funstuff" and Planet Earth Intro"

20th April 2003. EASTER SUNDAY

PEACE?
The war seems to be ending, but Iraq seems to be in total chaos. People are desperate for water and medical supplies and food. The country has gone berserk (not surprisingly) and has gone a mass psychotic orgy of looting, rape and destruction leaving the infrastructure in tatters. Priceless art treasures from the museum of the oldest civilization of mankind have been smashed to smithereens. Vigilante groups have been set up to protect hospitals from people stealing vital medical equipment. The Coalition troops are mopping up what remains of the literally diehard members of the Ba'ath party and loyal troops. It's a big mess, but Saddam and his despotic regime are finished it seems, which was what was wanted by Bush & Blair (and it now seems, by many of the Iraqi population) - but where is he? And have any weapons of mass destruction actually been found as yet? I don't think so. The Pentagon has to find the bastard, and his brutal sons, and the rest of his henchmen and women, and it has to find something in the way of chemical or biological agents, so that it truly can call "closure".

I said I wouldn't write any more about Iraq, but there I go again, ranting away - sorry.

Back to "what's new" for the work and the website. That painting I mentioned before, "Everything but", has now dried and looks really good I think, even though I say it myself. It works well when viewing it from a distance and it has a very interesting surface too. Since then I have worked on (and finished) another one the same size and concept. This one is still drying (pva glue takes a long time to dry and go transparent when poured on in the lavish quantities I've been doing lately!). This one has got lots of gold and silver glitter in it and beads and buttons and has more of an ovoid form than the previous painting. I have called this new painting "the kitsch in sync" - they really belong as a pair. Essentially, these paintings are about sex.

I hadn't done an animation for quite some time, so here's a new one for your pleasure. It's called blacklights. It'll take a bit of time to download.

Update: "the kitsch in sync" has now dried and looks good on the wall next to "Everything but". I quite often paint horizontally on the floor, so it is always interesting to see how a painting reads when hung up. I am very pleased with both of them, but then again, I am my favourite fan. I will get them on-line when time permits. There is a lot I have to do to the website, not least correcting some of the bad html I had written for some of the early pages, which are full of spaces.

8th April 2003
WAR!
- what is it good for?

I am not going to talk anymore about it, because it would be pointless. We all have our own views on the situation, whether we believe the war to be just, or whether we believe it to be immoral, and anything I have to say is immaterial. Suffice to say, I believe that the world will be a more dangerous place afterwards.

Moving on. I have just finished a painting and it is a bit of a departure from some of the recent abstract pics. It is much less formal than those and has a more chaotic, organic feel to it. It has a coloured striped background with a splash action foreground with lots of beads and plastic things and glittery bits and blobs and puddles of paint. I've called it "Everything but". It is a bit mental. I'll get a scan of it soon and put it up online.

I have added a new section to the webstuff section called "Love Love Love". It was intended to be for Valentine's day, but I didn't get around to finishing it satisfactorily in time, so it was put on the shelf for a bit. But I looked at it again and did a bit more work to it and decided I liked it. Also, it seems kind of timely.

I have also now fully registered with PAYPAL, so I will be able to sell my work online with Visa & Mastercard. It will take some time though to get it going. Meanwhile, if you see something you would like to purchase, a photograph or a painting, then let me know.

19th March 2003
the last day of peace
Only three hours left before time runs out for Saddam Hussein to give himself up and his cohorts to surrender. If not, the world will experience a military onslaught unprecedented in our human history. Women and men, children and the elderly, soldiers and civilians will have horrific, heroic, bloody, brutal even beautiful experiences. People will die. 3 men will be judged by what is the outcome of this moment of time. The dictator of Iraq, the maniacal leader of "The Free World", and his more eloquent British friend. As I said earlier, it is, or seems to be, irrelevent how I feel about the War. I personally think it is the most obscene, frightening, fascinating and incredibly sad thing there is. I despise knowing about this hateful behavoir - I can't comprehend it. It's too big- I'm too small. I live in what is labelled as a democracy. I vote and the person I voted for, Mr Chris Smith member of Parliament for Islington North rebelled against his party, New Labour , the ruling centre right political party lead by Tony Blair, and voted against the government for going to War. Billions of people around this world (many with far fewer freedoms than I enjoy) are against what is about to pass. So what. The people in power will play their games and use the people as pawns, and we do what we must do. The three (un)wise men who love playing with very big, very nasty gun will have their moments in history, and the rest of us will have to live with the consequences for many, many years to come. Why?

Anyway, back to myself, and I know that you find me much more interesting than world events, and I do apologise for not keeping you up to date with what is going on in the dazzling, spectacular, incredible thing that is my life. I have genuine excuses though. My beautiful existence is not very fab at all at the moment. I feel rotten and the glands in my neck are swollen and my head feels like it's being crushed by a very large fist. Uuuurrgghhpppssshtt!!!!!. Also, I had to buy a new battery for my mac, which was showing completely the wrong dates. 1923, 1959, I was sending emails dated 1967 and friends thought I was time travelling. This meant that I was unable to save any html files correctly or to update them onto my server. But, I have returned and will keep you up to date with what is going on (assuming we are not plunged into WW3). PACE.

4th March 2003
Have been distracted of late. Every spare bit of my time (when it's not being taken up doing my proper job) seems to filled doing mundane stuff like cooking, trying to keep up with bill paying, tidying up, going to the loo, eating and sleeping. Well, the last couple are quite enjoyable, actually. If I'm not doing that, then I'm drinking (I've been getting tipsy twice a week, every week, recently) - and that's a lot for me. I get pissed very quickly and easily (three Leffe blonds are more than enough). Either that or I'm recovering from all this hardened boozing. As it's the start of Lent tomorrow, I think I will have to stop it for a bit. Need to detox. Need to think clearly. Promises, promises!!

I have, however, been spending more and more time at the studio on my days off (three a week) and making some "product". I painted six new "cameos" (as I've called this new, warped bitmaps series) recently, so that's 15 in total. I've taken some slides, so I'll make a webpage for them some time. I have also been doing some printing of some photo stuff that's linked to the tunnel paintings. These pics are part of an ongoing seres of photoworks that are grouped together in grids. I have not put these on the website, because they are difficult to view (present) satisfactorily.

Anyway, this all means, that I have been negleting the website somewhat. Not entirely though. I have recently been scouring the web for more planet Earth gifs, and have discovered 72 more, which means that I have now 232 in the collection. However, this presents a dilemma, because it means that "This is planet Earth" would be over 10mbs if I added the new animations - a looong download time with a standard modem. I will do that soon, because it is what that page is about - an artwork showing a universe of Earths, but I'm also thinking that I will add some extra pages showing less amounts of animations together, as well as the pages in which they are catagorised (small, medium, large and novelty). When I get the time from my busy, hectic schedule of domestic chores and full-on alcoholism, I'll sort it out.

Too much pressure!

12th February 2003
Not much to report in terms of doing anything to the site. Have been busy at the studio though, and have created some fab new paintings - larger versions of the small bitmap style paintings I've been doing lately. I've decided to spend more time in the studio, seeing as I am paying a substantial amount of money for it. It has taken me a long time to get used to this new space. It's a bit too small and it just doesn't have the ambience of Carpenters Road - my last studio. However, I have decided to knuckle down and actually use it instead of making lame excuses to myself not to go there. And, I have bought a heater so that I don't have to freeze my bollocks off as before - which makes life much more civilised!

I have also sorted my printer out - new scsi cable - so I can now print things (again)! So I have made some prints of the figurative pics series I have been working on on the computer. I have now done about 26 of these people. Trouble is , the colour ink cartridges run out very quickly. The peripherals work out to be much more expensive than the actual printer (Epson stylus photo 810) in the short run.

I am trying to be more assertive (in terms of my work, and the promotion of it) and to be less grumpy (see below). I feel the need to create more strongly than I have done in the last couple of years. Granted, I was spending a lot of time putting the website together, but I now want to make more real (not virtual) artworks. I feel quite happy doing both the figurative digital pics and the abstract paintings at the same time. Neil Paterson (half of the famous Paterson twins) asked me which style was the more important to me and which was the "true JB art". I replied that they were part of the same thing, I do not see them as being seperate. To me they are part of a vision (which includes the photos and the webstuff) which I will not allow to be limited by using only one medium. The concept is the important thing, but the method and tools used to create that idea are only chosen because they are the correct applications to realise the visual image in the best way that I can. The fact the I can work in a variety of ways (just using contemporary technology, that's all), doesn't mean that I prefer one method or style of work to another. They all add up to my visual interpretation of the world as I see it; they are all "true JB art".

28th January 2003
Been a bit lazy lately - hibernating! I do enjoy sleeping (I quite often think it's my favourite time of the day!), so consequently haven't done much on the site - so much for promises.

I have however, made some changes to the druggie page in the figurative photography section, because I wanted to increase the size of the animation and I thought the page needed more navigation links. The start of this section is accessed quite a lot - people come straight into the site at this point. There are obviously links out there somewhere for people to come and see the drug-addled addict. In fact, this image has been used on many bulletin boards (somewhat to my annoyance). I think some surfers don't realize that this page(s) is TONGUE IN CHEEK and is a spoof. Oh well, what do I know and do I care really?

I have also made yet another animation. This one is called "poolwhirl".

14th January 2003
I went gallery visiting the other day. I saw Rachel Whiteread at Haunch of Venison, a new gallery off Bond St. Top class show in posh space - they've got Robert Ryman next. She showed a bath and a staircase upstairs which looked great, and the next floor down were the resin casts of the space underneath chairs. I like these a lot and saw them being made, but I thought their positioning on the gallery floor (to accomodate the stairs and pathway of the viewer) looked awkward.

I then saw David Hockney's new work at Annela Juda. He exhibited two bodies of work: landscapes and portraits. They are watercolours on sheets of paper which he has combined together to make a larger painting. I thought the figurative pieces (which usually combined two seated figures), were interesting and I thought his draughtsmanship was very slick. Watercolour is supposedly a very difficult medium. However, I wasn't too keen on the landscapes, or seascapes, which were very gaudy, and seemed simplistic and crass. Could do (and has done) much better!

I then wondered down Cork Street (which is pretty drab these days) and most of the galleries were closed for rehanging of new shows, but I was impressed with Katie Pratt's abstracts at Houldsworth. They are involving paintings with wonderful surface textures to them. They look like she had a lot of fun making them.

7th January 2003
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE
-let's hope it's a good one!

Been down in Somerset for the holiday with my best friends and had a suitably debauched time with much mirth and love and food and intoxications. We were all in good spirits because my dearest friends were happier than they have been for many years (because of various circumstancies I won't divulge or bore you with). I had a wonderful time.

It was great because I didn't think about the way of the world and the revolting way humans in power treat the rest of us (quite often with our own connivence), and the way we all seem to pawns in a huge game of strategy. Whether I agree, or disagree, with war with Iraq is totally irrelevent in the huge scheme of things. I get incredibly sad and upset about oil slicks and forest fires (but you have to shut it out and become inured to it otherwise it's all too much) - and there's nothing I can do about it. All this information we have (that we have to have) from all around the world, instantaneously, is scary and beautiful and completely out of my control - but I probably could not live without it. Information is the drug of choice for most humans, it gives the biggest highs and supplies the deepest depressions. Sometimes, I would love to block it all out and just "be". However, that would mean using dangerous narcotics or just being ...dead. But having some grasp of a very small fraction of this knowledge makes me the person who I am. I think it's how one processes all this data and translates it into communication with other people is what makes us all individuals. I may be unable to have any impact on the wider world, but I can at least try to have some influence on my own small sphere of existence. How I behave, what I do, is ultimately my decision, so I might as well try to make a good job of it. I need to change the way I live, because I'm not happy as things are (like most of us, I suspect), and I'm the only person who can do anything about it.

They say you're on a Resolution!

As for the website, well, I shall continue to make it more involved and add more stuff. I want to do more cataloguing of the animated gifs in This is Planet Earth. I shall, no doubt, continue with "a journey". I want to do more animations, although I was a bit perturbed after playing the Playstation game/ambient experience "Baby Universe", because it had images similar to the ones I have been creating - only much better, and infinite as well. I also will go through my slides and negs to add more stuff to the photography section. I still have to get around to adding the pics of those paintings that I had at the old studio, which I destroyed when I moved to the new studio.

Meanwhile, I have added 2 more animations - waterwhirl and metamorf, both of those are colouful and complicated and therefore have large file sizes and will take some time to download. I have also added an animated gif ("angelanimation") to the "weird" section of photography, which I've now renamed as "Angels".

I'm also thinking of making this page more of a diary in which I will comment on various stuff - as I had started to do last year with the "review" I wrote of the Barnett Newman and Eva Hesse exhibitions at Tate Modern. I'm not going to do a daily diatribe about the mundanity of my existence, but I want to write about things that maybe have no direct relevance to the art or the website, but still have some sort of meaning to me (and I want to tell you about). It will be a logbook of musings and thoughts that I feel I need to impart to you (this information thing again). This website is called "a human being" so I think I should write about things that I'm interested in and which defines me as an individual. Of course, you might not want to read my ramblings so I will put those entries and paragraphs in a different colour - like this one, so you can differentiate. Of course I will still be documenting what's progressing on the website. See how it goes...

Anyway, I hope that you have a prosperous, happy and fulfilling year and you manage to achieve some of your goals and dreams in 2003.

Peace.